I just want someone to look at me and say… “yep, i can 100% say i want to be with you for the rest of my life” without lying through their teeth. I regret ever saying things i didnt mean a year ago, i wish i still had it and that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I pretended to be big.but i never was.
Maybe i have been getting everything that i deserved recently. Things couldnt be more lonely right now.
Dont worry, DECADE will get me through the long days until i find that person again. I wish i cared more back then.
The past 6 months have been a huge lie and totally taken as a fucking mug. Self realization is taking place and im not going to pretend being happy with how i am.
